Life

Does life has any sense?I know my words are quite emo and there is an image we have...emo are dark gloomy they hurt themselves...do I hurt my self? Yes I do and you might think I am wrong and I think there is nothing wrong...I don't agree with others doing it but for myself is OK I deserve it after all...
Life seems meaningful we have dreams we love we fight ... But then the world slaps you I know we all have moments when we fall but if the world slaps you over and over again and no one can understand you no one is on your side...does it have any meaning?
Is frightening there ate times when seems the gods ate finally are in your side and is bright but they are just teasing you...they just want to see you fall and the pain inside is horrible how many times I have had this pain inside me? I don't want to victimise myself but sometimes is like there is no strength...there is no point in dreaming, in fighting in falling in love...because the wold laughs at you at your pain...so what is wrong with wanting to dissapear? As long as I don't have to keep suffering...call me coward maybe I am...