Waterfall

I haven't write for  while here.
I have stories to upload but I guess I've been quite lazy...
I've been watching lots of doramas,specially Japanese dramas and a few Koreans, so most of my time it's been one dorama after another, plus anime u.u
I started to draw again, yesterday I finished on scketch of Kazuya-san (I can't say his name for some reason, cannot remember and every time I try to say it I end up saying another name, that's why I call him by the last name) and today I finished one of Isshi-sama.
 Today I also listened Kagrra, it was beautiful as always but couldn't help to feel that sad feeling. To be honest since the beginning of this spring it's been like this, every time I see cherry blossoms it sad and beautiful.
Makes me wonder where ever he is. Can he see the cherry blossoms? or where he is, does he have cherry blossoms surrounding him?
I'm not brave to listen his single yet. I'm so coward but it feels like a desperation. It's been now 3 months and still is unbelievable. I'm still hoping someone tell me that was a lie.
Naoki-san keeps writing simple things, makes me want to go there get him drunk and that he lets go of his feelings, sorrow and cries...I don not know but just make him stop of holding his feelings inside. Even when he writes nonsense and laughs, I feel that's not Nao, not the one that I met. Naoki and Nao are different now is not the same...I want Nao back ... is it selfish? probably yes.
And Akiya-san ... nothing...yesterday night I had a bad feeling and couldn't sleep at all... I just want him to be ok... please take care of him an also Nao, actually all of them...
Now listening Alice Nine...for some reason I always look at Shou-san as a prince, even when I don't like princes or princesses but Shou-san is my prince ^^ his voice always raises my spirit, is like I'm drowning and his voice is like his hand taking me out of the water...it's always been like that,so that's why now I'm listening to his voice.