winter's memory...spring's memory...sakura's memory...

This picture is old already....by that time things seemed to be everlasting...like nothing was going to change so drastically...when Kagrra, was going to keep creating beautiful music for a long time, when my briefs chats with Akiya were going to be for a long time and definitely by those days Isshi was still alive and sharing his beautiful voice...
I met Akiya before he did that color change on his hair...I remember the surprise I had when saw him with the hair like that, but couldn't resist to like him more...but now those are just nice memories,even if they were a lie, they're nice memories to me...
But I realised doesn't matter how hard I try to forget Akiya, I just can't...after all, I've been into him for 3 years...and it's a feeling I just can't explain...so I won't give up...I like him, I love him in this particular way and I just can't throw those feelings away. Even when he never return those feelings, it will be ok...I don't regret the fact of having those feelings for him. But I will stop waiting for him...I will move on.
But now I just want to know how is he... I miss his randomness,his childish personality,which is cute...I always remember that scenery that he did with play dough, Dragon Quest and how he explained... those really important contradictions that he had before sleeping. if playing his new PS game or going to sleep (when he was really tired) ... I miss him...Everyday I check my computer hoping that he had write something but...nothing...
If god exist or any type of deities I just want to ask them for Akiya...please take care of him, he's precious someone...
And I still dream with singing next to his guitar...
Akiya please stay well...